Divorce

It’s amazing
How a divorce
Can haunt your mind
If you left it
When you thought
It was the right thing
To do, but wasn’t
Exactly sure,
And then realized
Too late that
You were wrong.
And the songs you
Hear are so sad
Thinking of how
You wish it could
Be like it was
In the beginning.
When you were
So crazy for each other.
To smother
Her with your heart
And see a life together.
The promises you made
And the thoughts it might
Last forever.
And then gradually that
All fades and erodes
And in the difficult moments
Your will to see things through
The storms
Yields to the idea that being
Separate will solve the problems.
For some it might.
But for others it hollows you
As you meet new persons
And realize,
I can’t find anyone who
Thrilled me like my
Wife.  
You don’t even try to
Do it on purpose but
She appears like a ghost
To remind you of what
You had.
And at some point you ask
Yourself if your wife might
Really be the one great
Chance you had at it.
For happiness.
For love.
Forever.
And now it’s gone.
And you can’t get it back.
And it gnaws
And saps
Your being.
Your psyche forever
Damaged.
By comparisons
To what you had and lost.
And might never find
Again.
No matter how open to it
You are.
The star doesn’t
Always shine twice.
And you ask yourself
How will I ever get
Over this?
I haven’t yet
Heard the answer.

Poem by Michael Juchnowski