She leaves



Today the prettiest lady in the warehouse
Left the warehouse and everything is so
sad
The walls are sad
The floor, the tables are sad
And men’s legs and faces are sad
Because they won’t be able to see
That wonderful body in tight jeans
Or knit pants strut down the aisles again
Blond hair swaying—walking with a
vigorous
Athletic stride
And she was usually smiling because the
men
Would be smiling and dreaming
And I was so sad… thinking I had a
chance with her
Maybe I did, maybe I didn’t
At home she had two kids and a husband
But she would smile at me and call me
“honey”
And we would make eye contact and I
would stare
Lustfully at her body, and we would smile
At each other—
Things like that keep you going through
days
Which are like empty boxes
I wanted to ask her out, and to kiss
And to get behind her and…
But not having the guts or the energy,
Or always feeling ashamed because there
was
Always someone around, whenever we
got a chance to speak
To one another
I would say wait till tomorrow… always
tomorrow… waiting for
Tomorrow… but tomorrow never came
And I think of all the other girls on the
ancient
Highway of memory—all missed
opportunities,
Waiting in the fog of moment
All gone; perhaps some will be
remembered
While eating a red apple,
Then remembering a face, and forgetting
a name
Or remembering a name and forgetting a
face
I hold a requiem for the moment,
While being past the moment—ashamed of
my
Cowardice and my sorrow,
While riding down a torn boulevard of
regret